There burns inside of me a light and energy that I wanted so badly to translate into words so I could share it with others. I get so excited by the things I’m learning and so awestruck by the things I’ve seen that I want to shout them from the rooftops and tell the whole world what an incredible universe we’re living in. I am so grateful to have been awoken from the nightmare of half-consciousness I was living in that I want to wake everyone else up. My joy and excitement about existence is overflowing and I don’t want to experience it by myself.
I want to be able to paint a picture of the world, a picture of life, that’s as vibrant and mind-blowing and intricately simple as I feel it to be. I want to be able to tell people things in a way that will make them understand it in their heart. To tell them that everything happens for a reason and for them to be filled with the same peace and confidence I get from knowing that. To tell them that they are perfectly loved and nothing they do can change that, and for them to then stop living in fear of rules and of making a mistake. To tell them that there is so much more to this world than what they experience with their five senses, and for their consciousness to be expanded to experience the great spectrum of existence. To tell them that we make life much more difficult and complicated than it has to be, and for them to see how simple are the natural laws of attraction and karma.
I want to tell them that we exist so far beyond this life and for them to stop living for momentary satisfaction but do the things that will benefit them long-term.
I wish I could show them how meaningless are money, power, careers, social status, and material possessions, and that the meaning of life is to spread love and hope and truth. I wish I could explain that everything is energy, that happiness is a choice, that suffering is our greatest spiritual teacher, that time and space are an illusion, that we are the universe discovering itself. I wish I had the words to express the beauty I find in pain and darkness, the perfection of the plan being unfolded, the timelessness of the story we are telling with our lives.
I long to find a way to communicate the fire that woke me up. I want to wake everyone up out of the fog of fear and suffering. I want to verbalize the Truth.
But I can’t. I can’t wake up anyone who is not ready to wake up, I can’t make anyone see what they are not ready to see. It took experiencing darkness for me to find the light. And I would be arrogant to think that I can verbalize Truth and wake others when I am still waking up myself. I have barely begun to crack open the book of all there is to know. I am still learning and I just want to learn alongside others. All I can do is speak my heart through both words and actions, and people will understand or they won’t.
In any case, perhaps some things are not meant to be spoken, at least not by me. Some things can only be felt. Some things we just know and understand although we can’t speak about them.
Everyone is on their own path of learning and the teacher is experience. Experience lets us feel those things we cannot speak, the things we cannot learn from a book or by someone else telling us.
So all I can say is embrace experience. Experience as much as you can. In time we learn to listen to that voice inside of us that doesn’t have to use words to convey Truth. Listen. Learn. Ask questions. Pay attention.
There is so much out there to discover. Seek and you shall find. Open your heart and mind and let yourself be swept away by the whirlwind of experience.
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